Everyone is asleep & I can’t go to bed, I am so excited cause Ronson has an job interview tomorrow, & on top of that we will be moving to our new house. Today was an good day for me. I honestly wish I was going to work. I hate being around & not doing shit. Its so depressing but then again I have to think about my health. I will have to wait for doctors ok to see if I can go back to work, but see they said I won’t be able to work for a year or even longer. I am not gonna say what is wrong with me cause there is A LOT wrong with me. I have to go to treatment & get better. All that matters to me is my Audrina is ok & getting taken care of. You live life to the fullest cause who knows when your last tomarrow is gonna be.